Monday 28 September 2009

birth plan and stuff

Midwife came to discuss my birth plan and what to expect during labour and stuff today. I've been freaking out about everything recently and today just made me freak out a lot more. I'm still undecided on pretty much everything. So far, all I'm really sure about is the fact that I'd rather not give birth! The midwife had a fake boob though, so it was slightly amusing.

I really don't like the thought of breastfeeding, but I want what is best for the baby. I was totally undecided about how I want to feed the baby, but after a lot of pondering today I think I've come to a semi-decision! I think I'm going to use one of those breast pump things to get milk out of me and feed that milk to the baby from a bottle for the first week or so (or maybe a bit longer if that seems to be going well) and then switch to normal bottle feeding... That way he'll get all the antibodies and stuff from the boob juice, but I wont have to actually have a baby sucking on my nipples. Also, the transition from nipple to bottle will be easier for him because he wont have had time to get used to sucking on a nipple anyway! I'm not sure whether what I plan on doing counts as breast feeding or bottle feeding as it's breast milk from a bottle lol! Heh, the midwife was telling me shizz about breastfeeding today and she had two really creepy looking dolls and a fake boob. It was hilarious.
Interesting fact of the day: If you put a newborn baby on your chest, they'll kind of crawl to the boob on their own... How clever! Apparently they can smell the milk or something.
That must be true because the midwife told me!

I'm undecided on pain relief. Not one type of pain relief sounds appealing when taking into consideration the side effects and what it does to your body. I don't like the idea of my legs being all numb and unusable... I'm pretty sure I'll try to avoid an epidural under any circumstances. I don't want to feel out of control or anything either. I think I'm just going to try gas and air and if that isn't good enough, I'll just have something stronger. Even gas and air sounds unappealing, but meep... I'm guessing it'll be better than having no pain relief! If only I could get absolutely wasted in my own way during labour... XD

They prefer you to stay in hospital over night if it's your first baby... but there is a thing where you can go home after 6 hours if everything goes ok. Unless there's a good reason to stay overnight (like if there was something wrong with me or the baby) I am going to refuse to stay there for more than about 6 hours. I hate hospitals. On Saturday the midwife is going to meet me in the hospital and show me the labour ward. I don't particularly want to see it, but apparently it's a good idea. =/

I'm going to make a CD to listen to when I'm in labour and stuff. I'd just take a few CDs with me, but I'd be worried about what songs might come on. I certainly don't want the squigglytiddlypeep to be born to a song about fucking a dog, disembowelment or something equally unsuitable! I'm going to have to ponder a lot over what songs I want to use.

I got given a dvd to watch... I'm not sure whether I want to watch it as I dread to think about what could be on it! Maybe I should get someone else to watch it before me to tell me exactly what it shows... Or maybe I'll just be brave!

Erk... out of all the things to do with giving birth there are to worry about, the one that bothers me most is people seeing my fanny and stuff. I know... it sounds stupid! I'm also worried about pooing. Apparently it's quite rare to poo whilst having a baby, but it happens... and even though they're discreet about it, it would be fucking embarrassing! On top of the embarrassing things, I'm obviously worried that something bad will happen to either me or the baby... but gosh, most people say that you're too much in pain and wanting to get the baby out to be embarrassed about people seeing that area, but I know that no matter how much pain I'm in, I'm gonna be totally mortified!

Labour is a looonnngggg process. I wish it could just last a few minutes or something. It doesn't sound nice at all, but I suppose I'll have to come to terms with the fact that I have no choice about it happening! I hope they don't have to induce me or anything. They wont let me go more than 10 days over the due date, so fingers crossed he comes before October 29th!

People keep nagging me to get my hospital bag packed. I don't even have a bag to put things in yet! I think I'm going to go shopping today or tomorrow to get stuff I need.

Anyhow... I'm gonna go watch a dvd or something. I've been so tired and lazy in the last couple of days and I don't know why because I've been making an effort to take my iron tablets and I've had hoobloads of rest. I'm also getting a really dull ache in the bottom of my back occasionally. It's different to the backache I've been getting for months... maybe it's a sign the baby is going to come soon. I've been told he could come at any time now that I'm 37 weeks pregnant... It's slightly unnerving! XD

Thursday 24 September 2009

Midwifeyness and shopping,

Had a midwife appointment today. Everything was fine... Apart from the fact that it was all different and I hate things being different to how I expect them to be. First I had to use a different door to get in... Then it was in a different room... And then there was a student midwife there too... but meep... here's all the info about shizz today:

Blood pressure: 110/60
Fundal height: 37cm
Presentation: Ceph 3/5 ... So a little bit further down than last time.
Baby's heart thing: 135-145
Urine: Trace of blood... but that's apparently pretty normal at this stage. Midwife suggested drinking cranberry juice-hell no! Not unless it has vodka in it! XD Water will do!

Midwife is coming to the house on Monday to do birth plannage... Then I have another midwife appointment on October 8th.

Anyhow... Yesterday I went shopping and it was immensely productive!

I finally ordered my pram! It should apparently arrive by Tuesday! I got the Quinny Buzz (the 3 wheeler one) in iron. I haven't seen it in iron in real life, but it looks nice in pictures. I've seen the dreami thing in iron though and it's the only dreami I actually like. I ordered the actual pushchair and the dreami yesterday. I couldn't order the car seat (which is the PERFECT car seat) in mothercare for another 4-8 weeks or something, but the dude in halfords is gonna try and order it. It's so perfect it's unavailable in most places at the moment. It doesn't really matter though because I have the crappy car seat my mum gave me, so I can use that until I get the prettyful one. =]

I also bought one of those chair thingys that babies sit in that bounce and vibrate and have dangly bits and stuff. It's hoobacious. It's all froggy and turtleyyyfied! =D

Aaannndddd... I got some blue moses basket sheets... So now I think I have all the things I actually need for when the baby is born... Apart from like nappies and dummies and stuff! I just hope I don't go into labour before tuesday! XD

Monday 21 September 2009

Update.

Wow... Less than a month left... 27 days actually as it's now September 22nd! I think I need to update this as I've been neglecting it once again lol!

I was slightly unnerved because a few hours ago I described a pain-type-thing I had to my grandmother. She said it sounded like a contraction and to tell her if I had another one. I was all like 'ohmyfuckinggod'. Luckily I haven't had another one. It's now a few hours later, so I'm probably not in labour or anything! If I was, I'd be totally screwed as I still don't have the stuff I need! XD

I was in Mothercare earlier. An overly talkative person that worked there decided to come and talk to me. She asked me how long there was until the baby was due and some shizz about pushchairs and stuff. The look on her face when I told her I only had 4 weeks left and still hadn't even decided on a pushchair was hilarious! I really do need to make decisions though lol! I went shopping with the intention of buying something big for the baby (either a bouncer thing or pram) and ended up coming back with some scratch mittens I spent £2.50 on and a few cds and dvds from HMV... So I ended up spending £30 on me instead... oops. =/

Last week in Manchester, my mother had been explaining to my two year old half-brother that I had a baby in my tummy. We thought he finally vaguely understood until he asked me to take it out so he could see it. If only my belly had a zip or a window!

I had a pretty huge freak out about having a baby a few days ago. I was all like 'ohmygodidon'twannahaveababy... blablablaahhh' and felt superly-megaly evil for thinking that stuff. I spoke to both my grandmother and mother about it and apparently it's normal to think shizz like that and my mother even thought that shizz once or twice when she was pregnant with H (who was actually planned)! Made me feel a lot better about the freak out. I'm pretty much over thinking that shizz now though. I think it was only because all of a sudden there's only a few weeks left, I've had a visit from the health visitor and I actually have to start frantically buying things rather than just flicking through catalogues and looking at stuff! I've also started thinking about the actual baby and stuff (yeah, it hadn't really dawned on me until recently that I was actually going to have to look after a baby)... There are constant reminders everywhere that I'm pregnant and it seemed like I couldn't escape from it or anything. I was pretty overwhelmed with everything and stuff... I found it scary how having a few shameful thoughts and being overwhelmed can affect other areas of my life so much. I'm getting used to everything now though and as I'm no longer freaking out, I just want to get everything sorted quickly and for him to be born soon! I'm so fed up of being pregnant and I just want to meet the squigglytiddlypeep! =D

I thought I'd settled on a name yesterday... Turns out I haven't. My list is very narrowed down though. Not gonna say what the possible names are though, as I'm still doing the whole not telling people names I'm pondering thing.

I'm still peeing a zillion times a night and still getting heartburn. I also never seem to be hungry anymore (I'm guessing that's pregnancy related). I keep getting lots of random twinges and pains and stuff too... and lots of backache and not being able to get comfortableness. Meep, I wish I had some interesting symptoms to report! XD

But yes, I am now 36 weeks pregnant and have nothing more to say so hoobletoodledoooo!

Wednesday 16 September 2009

Something in the water?

I woke up just over half an hour ago and couldn't get back to sleep. I had intended to get as much sleep as I could fit in before I left the house, but that isn't going to happen. I have just over an hour to kill before I need to leave, so I guess I'll just blog about shizz!

Ever since I found out I was pregnant, loads of people I know seem to be getting pregnant. My auntie found out she was pregnant just after I did (although she had a miscarriage), then I found out my cousin* was pregnant (she was further along than me, but I didn't know she was when I found out), then my mother's husband's sister had a baby, then my cousin's girlfriend got pregnant and now his brother's girlfriend is too... oh, and I have another cousin who's girlfriend is pregnant!

So yes, it leads me to believe that everyone is copying me. Well, obviously not the people who got pregnant before me, but I can't have been copying them because I didn't know.The weird thing is that most people who I know are pregnant are around my age (18 +/- 1). Yeah, a few of the people are in their late 20s or 30s, but the majority are around my age. I actually can't think of one person who I'm related to that is around 18 that hasn't recently had a baby or found out about pregnantness. It just seems really weird. Usually it's only older people I hear about that have had babies. A couple of people I was in college with back in 2007 have had babies too! Definitely something in the water (which is how my grandmother put it when we talked about it).

Along with there being a weird amount of people I know being pregnant, I keep seeing more pregnant people when I'm shopping and stuff. I'm probably not seeing more of them, just noticing them more now! There definitely seems to be some sort of mass-pregnancy thing going on though... hmm...

Anyhow, I'm gonna go take my iron tablet (which I've been told would probably make me constipated, but nopes- I'm pooing a normal amount!), work out what to wear, get changed, brush my teeth, feed the fish, degus, gerbils and hamster and go to Manchesterland to embark upon my baby-related-shoppingy mission! Goodbye!



*when I say cousin, I mean like 2nd cousins and whatnot.

Tuesday 15 September 2009

Updateyness!

Oops. It seems I have once again been neglecting this blog. I will try to write lots in it though as I'm not going to be pregnant for much longer. The baby is due in 4 weeks and 6 days. I'm not sure whether that sounds longer than 34 days or not, but whichever way I say it it's really not that far away!

My belly is currently jumping around hoobloads. I've been meaning to take a photo of my belly doing this for at least 10 weeks now, but it's impossible. Every time a camera is pointed at it or someone apart from me looks at it, he suddenly stops moving. I'm not going to bother going to the other side of my room to get my camera as I know that a video of my belly moving is inevitably not going to happen! XD

Every time he moves tonight, it hurts. He's being pretty evil! I think his head is pushing more down and it feels as though he's occasionally kicking my rectum or something. It's not a nice feeling! I keep getting lots of pain in the hard to describe bit somewhere between my belly and my fanny. It's like he's trying to headbutt his way out of me or something. I have a feeling the next five weeks are not going to be very fun!

I'm going shopping in Manchester again tomorrow (well, technically today). I hope to get most of the things I need. I still have hardly any baby stuff and I have a feeling shopping is going to get harder and harder as I seem to get more pain than I usually would if I'm walking and I'm certainly starting to develop the infamous pregnancy waddle! I got some baby bargains in Cheshire Oaks a few days ago. Unfortunately, I only really bought clothes. I bought a baby monitor thing that day though. I have a big list of everything I need to get. It's a little scary to look at, but hopefully I'll have crossed many things off it by the end of tomorrow!

Ooohh... and I was reading about week 35 of pregnancy on some online thing today and it said that mood swings are pretty common at this stage. I'm glad of that. I've been unintentionally behaving appallingly recently and now I have something to blame it on. I like being able to blame just about everything on pregnancy!

Pregnancy is affecting me in strange ways. It makes me want to buy shoes all the time. I know it probably sounds like I'm just making up excuses for my recent shoe-buyingness, but before I was pregnant I would never have even considered buying shoes. I'm not usually a very shoey person! Probably pregnancy hormoney things making me more female!

I had a huge craving for jelly and ice cream last night so I went to Tesco and bought some. It was amazing. I got a 2 litre tub of tesco value ice cream for 70p. Best bargain I've had in a long time!

Oh, I did that urine sample thing and everything was apparently fine. I have no infections or anything. It kind of pissed me off that everything was hoobacious though because it means I accidentally got pee on my hand for nothing. >.< I'm also pretty curious as to why I had protein in my pee. I want an explanation dammit!

Anyhow, hoobletoodledoooo!

Thursday 10 September 2009

Midwifeishness

I just had my 34 week midwife appointment. It was a different midwife today. She was quite nice and for some reason she knew my grandmother.

I've been getting all these weird pains in the last few days. My grandmother was semi-convinced I was in labour or something lol. I just thought he was starting to push his head down or something. I was right. Apparently he's pushing shizz and shizz or something... The midwife did explain it to me, but I forgot most of what she said. The important thing is that I was right! His head is starting to engage and it's apparently 4/5th palpable (1/5th engaged). I'm pretty happy he hasn't gone back to being breech or anything. As his head is starting to engage, it makes it seem a lot more real and stuff... It makes me a little freaked out that I'm actually going to have to push him out of me in a few weeks lol! =]

The midwife was slightly worried when the machiney thing that measures blood pressure said 127/81. That's pretty high for me. She then checked manually and it was 105/60, which is very normal for me. Modern technology should not be trusted! XD

My pee had protein in it. That could mean I have a pee infection or something, but I didn't have any of the symptoms I was asked about. I have to do a pee sample by tomorrow. I am not looking forward to it. I hate peeing into little things. Usually I'm allowed to just pee on a stick, but as this has to be sent off to be tested, I can't get away with it. Gutted. =[

Fundal height was 33cm, so he's still growing ok. His heart rate was good too. =D

So yeshh, shizz is fine... apart from the fact I have to piss into a little thingy, but hey ho! Ooohhh... and I got prescribed gaviscon, so I wont have to keep buying it! XD

Sunday 6 September 2009

Not a good idea!

Just for the record- Camping whilst 33 and a half weeks pregnant is NOT a good idea.

I went thinking I'd be fine. I didn't really understand why people were making a big deal about it. It was fun and everything, but even if I had wanted to, I wouldn't have been able to get any sleep.

I couldn't get comfortable on the horrible, hard floor. Every time I moved I got pretty bad cramp in my legs. I had it in both legs simultaneously at one point and it was horrendous. I also kept getting pins and needles. On top of that, I had terrible heartburn. I had no gaviscon with me. I'd taken it out of my bag at the last minute before I left the house to save room in my bag! >.<>.<

Today I'm all achey and horrible. I feel a zillion times more sleepy than I usually would be after campingy shizz.

I know none of this shizz sounds too bad, but seriously- it's fucking horrible and I will certainly be waiting until at least when the squigglytiddlypeep is born to go camping again!
Campingness was rather fun apart from all this shizz though! XD

Anyway, my head feels like it's going to fall off... So I'm going to bed for a few hours. Byesss.

Thursday 3 September 2009

clothes shopping!


Yesterday I went shopping for some baby clothes with my mum. Didn't get much, but I love the stuff I got. My mum paid for most of it (which surprised me). All I paid for was the greeny starry thing and a couple of bibs. The stuff is pictured above... apart from the bibs. I especially love the browny top with the trees and stuff on it! The dungarees weren't purchased yesterday, my mum had previously bought them along with a greeny hat thing.

H&M is AMAZING for baby clothes. The stuff is rad and not overpriced! I love it! When I've bought everything I actually need, I think I'm going to go there and spend all the left over money (if there is any) on clothes!

Monsoon had some lovely things. Way out of my price range though. It's certainly a shop for rich people. There was a shirt for a baby that cost the same amount as a shirt I bought for myself from River Island and thought was overpriced! I think I'll get the squigglytiddlypeep something from there at some point though... just need to find a special occasion or something to use as an excuse to spend so much money!

It amazes me how big baby clothes are... even newborn clothes... like, how the fuck is something that big supposed to fit inside my uterus?! o_O

Walking round Manchester all day whilst 33 weeks pregnant isn't the most comfortable of things. My back was KILLING me and so were my feet... and legs. My belly felt very heavy. I kept getting weird pinchy pains in the area I'd expect my cervix or something to be. It was horrible. Oh, and the squigglytiddlypeep kept kicking me in the ribs and stuff. I was surprised I didn't have heartburn on top of all that... I was exceedingly full (which just made everything all the more uncomfortable) from eating so much in pizza hut.

It wasn't a horrible day or anything. I didn't let all the pain ruin it. It was actually rather hoobacious. At least I bought some stuff... I'll buy more shizzle whenever I get the money from the HIP and SSMG. =D I love shopping!